So today my sister was done with me being upset, and so she emailed the concilor and told her what was up with me. And I knew ahead of time that she and my other friend, who is also concerned about me, were going to pretty much kidnap me. My friend told me that we were going to go see her in the morning, and so then I waited for her, and waited, and waited, and she didn't show when the bell to go to class rang, so I went to class. (Later I find out that she wasn't there because she was having family issues at home and come there late)
And so then I go to my first class, graphic's design. And about half an hour into the class, I get a note to go to the councilor's. I remember that I was chatting with my friend with our school email stuff and I told her that I was going to be kidnapped, and so when I got that note, I told her "I got to go, I'm being kidnapped."
And so then I went, and the concilor was talking to someone at the moment I went in, and so then I had to wait for her to be done. Moments later, my friend came in. And soon after that, we went into the concilor's office, and we told her everything.
It took about an hour and a half, maybe a little less. (And with our block schedueling, a class is an hour and a half) And at the end my councilor told me that I had homework, and it was going to be really easy. Then she said no, it's not, it's going to be hard, but no papers (except for the ones for the mental clinic I have to fill out....) and it was to thank everyone that has helped me with it, or just coping me being like this. This is a lot harder than it sounds. I don't think that I'm ready to do that yet.
But there were a few things I kinda wanted to say, but didn't because I was afraid. Like the fact that I lost seven or eight pounds in a week, or how since I was starving myself, a lot of fat left my body, everywhere from my back, to my fingers, and maybe a little off my stomach and my thighs. But it's kind of painful to touch things and sit on something hard, or lay back and relax, because I can feel my bones.
The weight you've lost isn't actual 'weight'. It's water weight. You're screwing up your digestive system.
ReplyDeleteThey're right!! <3 don't forget that there are LOTS of people that love and care about you. Don't let anyone tell you different! Not even yourself.
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