Most of the time it's harmless, but sometimes it hurts, even if it wasn't ment for you. Like one time I read a facebook status, "If you want attention, then your a whore. If you want respect, then your a women" But what I don't understand, is what do I want, attention, because I want them to know that I'm hurting? Or is it respect that I want. I truthfully do think that it's attention.
And then another one that I just read, "Attention all whores: go jump off a clift or die or something." So if I want attention, then I'm a whore, and if I'm a whore, then I should go die, right?
And then I read another status, which isn't really in the subject of whores and stuff, but it really did hurt me (especially since it was from my crush, well, ex-crush) He said, "If people doen't talk to you, it's either because, 1. YoU TypE liKE DiS. 2. You put hashmarks in front of #something. 3. Your annoying. 4. Your ugly. Don't be in these rules and you'll fit into society." But that's the thing, I don't fit into society for some odd reason. So I must fit into some of those rules, right?
But I guess I kind of deserve it, I accepted friend requests from people in my class. But I have made a few of my true friends because I accepted their request, even some that I really never met in school, but know them from IMing. How do you know who to add, and who not to add when the people you add could possibly be friends with are on there? How do you know who not to trust and who to trust. (Oh, by the way, the people that I find offensive statuses from, I unfriend, they usually arn't my friends anyways, just possible friends)
Yesterday I had a chance to go to my first therapy. I don't know if it was for sure or not, I handed the slip in the day before. Anyways, it didn't happen. And it's only supposed to happen on Tuesdays, so I guess that next Tuesday, if it still doen't happen, I will get worried. If I still don't get called in by the next Tuesday, then my worries will get worse, and think that they just don't care. If it happens the next week, then I'm hoping it's because of Semester Tests. But if it still doesn't happen, then I'll think that they don't care about me, and I feel that it's kind of weird to go see the councilor at least once a week, plus she's really busy. So if they never call me in, even to just tell me what's wrong with the paperwork, I'll feel unimportant and worthless even more than I already do.
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