Josh

I try to eat, but something is holding me back. That something is the words my little voice inside of me tells me. No one can hear that tiny little voice, but me. I think I shall name him... Josh.
So Josh is just someone that says things that people have said to me in the past, over and over and over again. And sometimes he just makes things up on his own. It just matters on the day.
Lately, Josh has been really annoying, and sometimes I beileve what he tells me. He tells me that I'm fat, ugly, and worthless. He tells me not to eat, because I already look pregnant. He tells me to just go into the bathroom after I'm done eating, but I haven't done that yet. He makes me feel left out, and pushes me out of people and groups. He makes me not want to trust people, makes me think that most of them are just like him. He reminds me that I don't have many friends, and he tells me why I don't. He says I'm worthless, that I can't really do anything in my life. He makes me terrified to be around people, and yet me makes me terrified of being alone. He tells me why eat, your worthless anyways. He stabs me, and punches me in the eye. He brings me down. And when I'm alone, he screams those mean things. And my eyes start watering, just as they're doing now. I try to keep my mind off of Josh, but he just comes back. He won't leave me alone. He's just a big bully. A bully that I know, and he knows a lot more about me than I know of him. He knows my weaknesess, and my secrets, and my past. And all I know about him, is his name. And he isn't even a real person.